So . . . huh.

[x_multipleman]

I actually finished backreading this system yesterday, but it took me a while to figure out if I had anything to say about it.

I mean, it's not every day you find out that the place your parents sent you so you'd be safe had just been attacked the week before by the U.S. government.

But, I mean . . . now that I know that, it does answer a lot of questions, like, why people have been so edgy, and--

Damn, though, if I hadn't backread like that I dunno if I would've known much was wrong, I mean, I thought you guys were just sort of quiet, and maybe having some trouble with your powers. A week ago today you guys were hiding out, or captured, or on the run, and . . . now you're going to class and planning barbecues. I don't want to say it's like nothing ever happened, because I can see that stuff happened.

But I guess what I want to say is, I think I'd still be a complete wreck if I'd been here last week. And you guys aren't, and I really admire that.

And if there's anything I can do to help, I don't know what, but if you guys think of anything I can do, there's pretty much always a spare me around to do it.

I think I still have a lot of thinking to do about this stuff, so this may not make a lot of sense. But I just thought I should say something.

Comments

[x_multipleman]

x_piotr
May 22 2003, 17:41:40 UTC
I agree with what Sam and Hank said.. what I did understand.. and I think not everybody writes everything in the journals. But what is wonderful about being here is that we are all friends and like family so there is always someone to talk to or hug.


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 17:50:10 UTC
we are all friends and like family so there is always someone to talk to or hug.

Just kill me now.


x_piotr
May 22 2003, 17:54:32 UTC
Well.. I like you Jono. :)


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 18:11:18 UTC
I have an idea. Do that metal thing of yours and stick your hand into my chest.


x_rogue
May 22 2003, 18:22:04 UTC
You know, we get the point. You're unhappy. You don't like it here. You don't like us.

It's not that we don't get the point, it's just that we've seen meaner, uglier, and angrier than you, kicked its ass, and sent it home. We're all fucked up and wounded here. You're not the only one. The display isn't in the least bit impressive.

No one feels sorry for you and more of us understand than you want to think. No pity. Just understanding. That's all you're going to get and if you think someone's going to run out of patience with you and kick you out, don't count on it.

Feel free to get nasty on me but leave people who really are nice well enough alone.


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 18:45:14 UTC
I don't see a glowing hole in your chest.

Do you know what's it like to not breathe and not eat and not know if there's anything left inside you when this gargantuan bolt of energy leaps out of your chest and hurts the people you love. So just piss off.


x_piotr
May 22 2003, 18:59:10 UTC
Not all of our powers are all good with no bad.

Rogue has her own problems so do not talk to her like this.


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 19:04:23 UTC
I was serious about wanting you to stick your hand into my chest. I can't do it myself.


x_piotr
May 22 2003, 19:06:22 UTC
Why do you want me to? What do you think it will do?


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 19:11:30 UTC
I want you to do it because you said you can't be harmed.

Where are you now.


x_piotr
May 22 2003, 19:20:55 UTC
Okay...

I am in my bedroom, suite 200.


x_crowdofone
May 22 2003, 19:48:12 UTC
Um, Piotr . . . I think maybe you should ask Dr. McCoy or somebody about what it might do to Jono before you actually, you know, stick your hand in his chest. Even if he does already have a hole there.


x_rogue
May 22 2003, 19:53:27 UTC
Piotr, dear, I second what Jamie said. Emphatically. Could we save experimentation until there's some adult supervision?


x_rogue
May 22 2003, 19:32:44 UTC
Can't play that card with me, Jono.

I know what it's like to nearly kill the people I love. Been there, done that, watched them dying, seen how people look at me when they know what I did.

The touch of my skin steals life, soul, and power from any living thing, and then I get to keep the souls of those I touch inside me. Everything they knew and wanted and loved and hated, all their thoughts, like ghosts in my shell. I've already got a crowd in here. I've done it by accident to someone I loved. I've had it done to me by someone I hate. I've had it given to me as a gift by someone who loves me. They're all here. In me. You can't play that card with me because I'm fatal too.

I try not to let my mutation and the pain of it be my excuse for behaving badly. Maybe I've had longer to get over it than you have, so I'll give you some leeway, but no matter how shitty our lot in this life is, we still get to pick how we act. Don't use it as an excuse to treat people like crap. There's enough people out there that would like to turn the tables and use it as an excuse to treat all of us like pariahs. Don't do it for them.


x_cannonball
May 23 2003, 02:18:55 UTC
*hugs*


x_synch
May 22 2003, 19:02:36 UTC
He was just trying to be nice.


x_piotr
May 22 2003, 19:25:27 UTC
It is okay, Everett...


x_dazzler
May 22 2003, 17:56:42 UTC
*eg*

Doooooomed...

;)


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 18:16:39 UTC
Your smiley taunts me.


Re:
x_dazzler
May 22 2003, 18:22:32 UTC
Snarky thing, isn't it?

*shakes head at smiley*


x_cannonball
May 22 2003, 18:10:57 UTC
We'll kill you with kindess, man.

Kill with kindness.

;)


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 18:18:47 UTC
I suppose next you'll put on frocks and go about singing and rejoicing and being one with the earth.


x_cannonball
May 22 2003, 18:44:13 UTC
Or we'll put on aprons, sing, rejoice, and be one with the BBQ.

;)


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 18:51:39 UTC
That actually counts as the same thing.

Now your smiley is taunting me.


x_crowdofone
May 22 2003, 20:33:43 UTC
:) ;) :D >:=8)


x_sparky
May 22 2003, 21:11:13 UTC
:/


x_cannonball
May 23 2003, 02:17:18 UTC
Ahaha...That was the idea!

^_^

o_O

-.-

B-)

:P


x_sparky
May 23 2003, 07:19:10 UTC
=_=


x_siryn
May 23 2003, 05:10:38 UTC
Grumpy people click here.

;-)


x_sparky
May 23 2003, 07:18:25 UTC
I'm scarred for life.

[x_multipleman]

x_crowdofone
May 22 2003, 20:32:53 UTC
Guess it's like one of my favorite books says, there's some things you can't share without ending up liking each other. Or turning into family, sorta the same thing.

You're a good guy, Piotr. :)


x_piotr
May 23 2003, 12:09:26 UTC
What book is it? I like to read.

Thank you Jamie so are you. :)


x_crowdofone
May 23 2003, 12:28:24 UTC
It's Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. And I bet they have a copy around here somewhere--if they don't you can borrow mine.

It's about a kid who discovers he has special powers, and then goes to a school full of other kids with special powers. They could use it for recruitment literature for here, actually. :)


x_kitten
May 23 2003, 13:59:29 UTC
It's a great book! I really can't wait for the next one to come out...

And hey, Piotr. I know it's available in Russian. I bet we could order it from amazon or some place and you could read it to Yana... I think she'd like it too...

:)


x_piotr
May 23 2003, 19:21:38 UTC
Thank you Kitty! I would like to read this in Russian and then maybe if I like it a lot I could try it in English.


Re:
x_kitten
May 24 2003, 01:05:34 UTC
Ok. Sometime this weekend we can go online and order it from amazon or someplace... I'll look into it. :)


x_piotr
May 23 2003, 19:20:38 UTC
I have never read that! I would like to.